Faith's Fluffy Friday

If you have followed my blog for the past couple of years, first let me thank you and second, you may remember a short series about “Blogging Off the Weight.” Obviously, I did not finish that series being that I am still fluffy and as you can imagine the mind battle over this screams “Failure” and “Fatty” every time I look in the mirror.

I vowed to never do a series again like that because I expect perfection from myself and never like to set myself up for failure. (This is getting REAL.)

I have come to the point that I am tired. I am ready to be healthy and not try to look like a model or “be skinny” rather I want to be healthy. I want to get into the habit of enjoying exercise and eating healthy and yes, losing weight will come with that. However, I cannot say diet. I cannot say my goal is to lose so many pounds by a date. While I am goal oriented, this looms over my head, I become anxious and then fail once again.

So, here’s to a new approach: Philippians 4:13.

I can’t do this on my own. I have to have the Creator’s help. Hello!! Why didn’t I come to this conclusion before?? Because I have allowed myself for years to be blinded in this area and listen to the lies of being “the fat friend” and even as I type that I know it’s still a process for me to not view myself as that but; if I am real honest, as the tears stream, that is all I see when I look at myself. I see the ugly. I see the fat or fluff if you will.

Why am I writing this?

Because if I do, there’s accountability

Because I know I am not alone in this war, right?

Because I feel that if I am struggling, someone else is too

Because God has been gracious to me the past couple of weeks and we are taking these first steps together

The other night this is what was on my heart and daily I read this:

Even in losing weight,

God cares

God is my strength and

With Him I CAN DO THIS

I,with God, can have self control for

   Cravings

   Bad food choices

   Laziness

Daily it’s a choice

Daily it's a battle in the war on weight

It's a mind game played on my taste buds and waistline. God is waiting, question is, am I going to show up today?

Daily God is on my side

While He cares, know that regardless of size, He still loves me and calls me His.

I can do ALL things thru Christ

              Lose weight, run, eat healthy, make it thru the day, breathe.

Until next time dearies, I know this post got REAL, really fast and I really did not mean for that to happen!