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A Mother’s Day Ramble

  Mother’s Day Ramble   Mother’s Day.  What a complex day.  Growing up it was always a sad day, but I didn’t understand why. My mom grieved her own mother. As a kid, I definitely didn’t understand it—and I’m still learning.  Then one year, I made her watch PS I LOVE YOU—and I genuinely didn’t realize, at the time, anything about grief! Mother’s Day was always complex, but I never realized how complex it could be.  Now, as a mother of two children who have buried their first mom, grief hits on Mother’s Day in a new way.  Gracee’s grief is usually triggered around this time of year for two reasons. Her body remembers her first mom, even if her brain doesn’t remember everything because she was so young; and she has a court ordered visit the week before with her first mom’s parents. (If you know, you know).  Grief has absolutely taken over that mom and caused a rippling affect in many lives. At least, I identify it as grief even if she does not. Maybe that is my coping mechanism for all th

A Ramble from a Rumble

See a Victory “The weapon may be formed But it won't prosper When the darkness falls it won't prevail 'Cause the God I serve knows only how to triumph My God will never fail Oh, My God will never fail I'm gonna see a victory I'm gonna see a victory For the battle belongs to you Lord I'm gonna see a victory I'm gonna see a victory For the battle belongs to you Lord There's power in the mighty name of Jesus Every war he wages He will win I'm not backing down from any giant 'Cause, I know how this story ends” This song.  Whew.  It may be my new anthem.  It’s on my heart and tongue constantly.  Whether the battle be personal (my health—physical and mental) or bigger, I know that I will see a victory.  But— You know what else I know? His ways are not my ways.  And, sometimes that victory may not look how I think it should look. “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,          neither are your ways my ways, declares t