Faith's Findings

What if… What if she/he never comes back? What if…. "Does that change the sovereignty of me, God Almighty?" "Does that change that I Am the Great I Am?" "Does that change that I am still on the throne?" What if the circumstances don’t change? "Does that change Who I AM?" "Does that change the Promises I have made?" "Does that change My Love for you?" What about the glimpse of hope that the circumstances are changing? "Circumstances change with the wind, but I remain the same." "Is your hope in Me? Or in the circumstance?" “Or in the outcome?” “…when the test says no baby.” "Keep your eyes on Me." “…when the diagnosis is cancer.” "Keep your eyes on Me." “…when the waiting is too much.” "Keep your eyes on Me." “…when the betrayal knocks you on your face.” "Keep your eyes on Me." I know I've written posts like this...

Betrayal.Desperation.Hurt.Forgiveness.Growth You lied for months. Made me a fool. You didn't lie by omission. You lied with words with actions with smiles with charms. You became desperate, desperate for conversation but most of all desperate for attention and at whatever cost. You threw it away what you said you valued all for some attention. even with my secrets  in your heart you chose you. The hurt swarms. The hurt changes. The hurt is like the ebb  and flow of the tide. I can't explain it. I can't hide it Though I try. I know I'm to forgive  The transgressions. I know this is a growth  process. I know I want Him more Than I want to slap you. Well, most days, that is if I'm honest. So forgiveness, too Is like the ebb and flow the tide. The hardest lesson  Is learning not to trust And to trust. That forgiveness isn't  Your key in But my key out Out of the hurt ...