From Tattered Fabric to Perfect Tapestry

Lately in my life I have encountered a lot of changes, both personal and professional. I have had dear friends just walk away, I was forced to switch jobs, leaving people I love. I have personally suffered some very warring storms; The wounds still fresh, have caused a downward spiral of emotions and self destructive thoughts and feelings. Unhealthy, is what this is. Unhealthy for me and it is now started affecting the relationships left in my life. I have questioned everything about myself trying to figure out who I am and what is wrong with me for this “abandonment” to happen. So, I took a step back to evaluate who I am, tossing all “Sunday School” answers aside and this is what I found:
I know I am a woman. A woman who is loving, caring and puts everyone and everything before herself. I give my all in relationships, loving with the rage of a storm. A woman who probably has an overly innocent and positive outlook on things. I am emotional. I live every day with passion, soaking in every moment. I never want the end of the day to come with regrets. I over analyze way too much and am learning to take my thoughts and irrationalism down a couple of notches. It takes me time to forgive but even longer to forget. I wear my insecurities on my sleeve and as much as I hate it, my eyes mask no emotion. I am an open book with complex sentence structure. I am a walking oxymoron if there ever was one. I make no apologizes for who I am or where I am in life, I only ask that you be patient with my imperfections for its those imperfections who make me who I am and who I will be as I grow. Does any of this make me less of a person?? Or make you better than me?? No. This makes me who I am and who you are not.

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Son of A Preacherman said…
I love that. "I am an open book with complex sentence structure." That kind of says, if you want to get into a close friendship with me, it's going to take some effort on your part. I like that a lot.
July 21, 2009 at 3:09 PM
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