Faith's Findings

I came home from work today still fighting a headache. There was a thunderstorm brewing outside and the house was quiet. I took the opportunity to crawl into bed with Alex, my dog, and flipped on the TV. Of course, there was nothing that interesting on and I had seen the NCIS that was playing about five times. I flipped the TV off. I allowed myself to just listen to the outside. I heard the rain’s melody as it sloshed in the puddles outside my window. I listened to the quiet harmony the trees chimed as they bowed with the wind and as the thunder let out its bass of beat, I smiled. Nature was indeed singing its praise to Him. I listened intently for a while and soon my head started to feel better, as if the chorus outside had washed my headache away. However, my dear friends, who dare to click on any of my blogs, ranting, or whatever you call these, we all know that my thoughts went away with me. Each boom of thunder and every flash of lightning caused Zorro, “the other dog”, to start b...

So, this morning I am driving down 28 along with everyone else and their momma. I am listening to Allison from American Idol jam to Janis Joplin's "Cry Baby", which is amazing by the way. So, I am minding my own business driving when out of know where a quarter sized, yellowish brown spider obstructs my view. I say "Um, hello?". I then think "Ok, I can't have this spider in my car all day where it can lay eggs or come back with friends?!?! What to do??" Mind you the spider is running back and forth my windshield. I take my foot the gas and get my flip flop (its casual Friday). SO, with my left hand on the steering wheel, I take my shoe and start chasing the spider across my windshield trying to kill it...I hit my windshield like three times before I finally killed the little demon!!! "Gross!! Now there's spider guts on my windshield!" BUT at least I killed him. However now I start laughing because there's a truck next to me that i...

So I know this is months later, but I found this "blog" on my computer and wanted to share: It’s New Year’s Eve and 2008 is quickly coming to a close. No big party this year. No big midnight celebration for me; instead, I sit alone with Alex snuggled next to me and I am anxious. Anxious. The last two years have been a hurricane of real life with this past fall as a defining moment in life for me. I’m anxious to say goodbye to a year whose events will forever be with me and hello to a year with its own adventures and memories to be made. 2008. I never thought, never in my wildest imagination dreamed of a 2008 like I had. January, I don’t even remember you except for a fabulous 23rd birthday party. February and March brought restoration for a father and son. April, I don’t remember you but May, let the craziness begin. On May 28th, I found out my job was being outsourced to Houston. That evening there was confessed love and a proposal. June, you brought a family reunion to reme...

Lately, aaand by lately I mean the last two years, life has been one roller coaster after another, and I am sure someone can relate. Along with the stressors of everyday life there have been quite a few curveballs that I have not really known what to do with so I let them build in my back. Last week, the “curveballs” had turned into massive knots in my back and the pain was almost unbearable. So, I went to have a deep tissue massage hoping for some sort of relief. I signed in at the spa and was taken to a comfy plush room to basically sign my life away. I sat there and thought “oooh, I hope I get a nice lady….” I sat and pondered and built up some ridiculous anxiety because, well, that‘s how I roll. My thoughts were interrupted by my massage therapist for the day. I looked up and up to a beautiful, tall, strong, black woman with short tight curly hair. I immediately thought, “Papa?” Now, if you have the book, THE SHACK, then you get the reference and if not, well there’s Google. This w...

Lately in my life I have encountered a lot of changes, both personal and professional. I have had dear friends just walk away, I was forced to switch jobs, leaving people I love. I have personally suffered some very warring storms; The wounds still fresh, have caused a downward spiral of emotions and self destructive thoughts and feelings. Unhealthy, is what this is. Unhealthy for me and it is now started affecting the relationships left in my life. I have questioned everything about myself trying to figure out who I am and what is wrong with me for this “abandonment” to happen. So, I took a step back to evaluate who I am, tossing all “Sunday School” answers aside and this is what I found: I know I am a woman. A woman who is loving, caring and puts everyone and everything before herself. I give my all in relationships, loving with the rage of a storm. A woman who probably has an overly innocent and positive outlook on things. I am emotional. I live every day with passion, soaking in ev...

"Just close your eyes and keep your mind wide open." "I seriously do not think God goes around damning people to hell. " "Why not? " "He's too busy making all this!" "You have to believe it and you hate it. I don't have to believe it and I love it!" The quotes above are taken from the movie "Bridge to Terabithia." I sat down to watch it this weekend and was totally enthralled from the beginning only to have my heart ripped out at the end, and we won’t even mention me crying like my best friend just died. Infact, they should change the name to “Bridge to Tear-Your- Heart- Out”! Anyway, like I do with most simple things in life, I looked for the deeper meaning of this movie. (ha! I know...I am one of a kind!) This movie was only half of what I expected but in a good way. The quotes above are probably my most favorite from the film. "Just close your eyes and keep your mind wide open." Hmmm, reminds me of the Bib...